A lot can happen in 10 months! I was working hard at my job till i realized financially this was not going to work for our family. It was not paying for our kids’ childcare at all, and then the youngest started having issues at the Daycare and I wouldn’t find out until it was their last straw. Which was very frustrating for us. In the end we pulled “M” out of Daycare, I stepped away from my job and started to stay home again, but looking for a better working job for our family this time.
I have to say I was NOT pleased about staying home again. In my mind I’ve given my kids many years to have me 100% of the time, it was finally my turn to do something that could help my family but also be for me. Man, God has shown me what it means to wait for His timing! But during this time God has also heard the cries of my heart. Never think that He doesn’t hear you! He does… but again it must be HIS timing!
The first answer to one of my Heart Cries was…. I can drive! Well I could before but if you’ve read these you know of my anxiety and how severe it had been. Today I can drive all over the place now, no longer relying on anyone else, not limited in distance at all. This allowed me to start volunteering at a Horse Rescue. My counselor at that time encouraged me to find something that was “giving to others”, one late night i was surfing and found out that there was a rescue not far from our new place, I filled out that volunteer application and step out of my comfort zone! I have to say it was the best thing ever! Not only did i find a great group of giving and amazing people, but i finally was able to be around horses and enjoy them!
Which brings me to the second cry of my heart… Owning my own horse. Ever since I saw an Amish Buggy coming down my street lost and looking for directions when i was little, I have been bitten by the horse loving bug! We were never able to own farm animals while growing up so I contented my animal loving nature with cats and dogs. (my mom had to keep telling me to stop feeding the strays as they were taking over our outside at one point) I still had that horse love simmering on the back burner, With encouragement from a friend and then my counselor, I stepped off into the unknown and loved on these horses that had been abused or neglected or not wanted anymore. We clicked… we had a lot in common so it wasn’t that hard. 🙂 Then with the encouragement of that same friend and the Director of the Rescue just this last month I adopted my first horse!!! She is everything I had hoped for and more! (excuse her muddiness…she loves to play in it)
I still have heart cries…. including getting a job that will help us as a family but now also help our animals too… but I’m learning how much sweeter it is to wait for God’s timing for these Heart Cries.
Life is still a roller coaster, there’s ups and downs… my family and friends are all experiencing heartache in the health department in some way, the world still beats at us and is unforgiving at times, and yes my kids are still driving me crazy! But I know God has a plan for me and it’s looking pretty awesome! It reminds me of one of my fav scripture art i did up…
Hope you all enjoyed!