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   So i can’t sleep tonight, it’s after midnight and i’m up working on making a necklace. I thought it a good thing at the time, and it was. But my mind is dancing all over with thoughts of other things and not even really on the necklace. Like “oh my goodness, did i mess up my leg? I really don’t have money to waste on an x-ray if it’s not broke really.” Then there are the thoughts about finally finding work but not having started yet and i know i just need to wait a bit longer but I’m one of those that wants to jump in and do it right away and if i can’t do it then i give up. I’m trying desperately to break that cycle.

    Also thinking about my plan for my jewelry stuff. Going to try and sell off as much as possible between the two vendor sales and then from there either gift items or try and sell them online or something. Then i switch over to my weight…. oh my! I am so angry at myself about this! I lost so much weight for a year and now it’s all back and then some! I’m like seriously sitting here crying about it. 😦  I don’t have good thoughts about myself…. and every time i try to change it with exercise or my eating habits i sabotage myself into failure.

   Then I see a verse of the day and it’s from Psalm 119 I’ve started to take the verse of the day and use it as a hook for myself to go read a part of the Bible i haven’t read before, and this is one of the ones i haven’t read before. It’s crazy long so i’m not going to post it here. It has 25 stanzas and each one has a “letter” of the Hebrew Alphabet as it’s header.  It’s pretty neat! But i sat there starting to read this i started thinking “this is me…. some thousand years ago a person wrote this and felt like i do”

     The meltdown of it is this…. We need to follow the commands that God placed into the Bible for us to read and follow. Even when bad things are happening to us…. even when we ourselves are a stumbling block we need to follow those commands/commandments. They are not just a suggestion. And there is more to them then just the “honor your mother and father”…. There’s more to it than just “Do not commit murder.” ..We need to research it and find out how God sees these commands and how HE wants us to follow through with them.

    THis is where i think convictions play a role too. Each person has their own convictions. I myself know that i can not drink alcohol really at all….I can not watch a lot of R rated movies with sex in them… I can not watch or hear about things that have realistic witchcraft or supernatural things in them (i can only watch the first 3 Harry Potter  movies…after that it’s a no go) .   See these are just a few of mine…. but i know that my friends and the people i see around me have different ones then me. They are going to follow some of these commands just a bit differently than me. And that’s ok…. in the end what matters is if we are following God’s will for ourselves.

Anyways….just my thoughts on this and that….

Frog

The World…

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    So I’m super excited to be looking into going back into the work world. I think this is what i was trying to do when i started my Jewelry business….  Don’t get me wrong I’ve really enjoyed it a lot!!  But the past few days i’ve sat down, did the numbers, the pros and cons, and so on. And i’ve come to the decision to wave the white flag. I’ll still have my Facebook page up and do orders if someone wants something but I’m no longer going to go to Vendor events or keep stock on hand. It’s been over a year…. it’s time.

   I’ve also told myself that i’m getting rid of my scale…well put it away anyways… i’m no longer going to look at it! It’s just depressing me. Instead i’m going to work out at least 5 days a week, go walking every day, and work on my eating habits….Also going to look into finding a Dance studio closer to us if possible so Hubbie and i can go back to dancing! I love it!  And i think that’s part of it… I need to work on doing things i enjoy…but also not let them rule me….like sitting around with a book…it’s good but not to do it all the time and never get moving.

  I read an interesting passage this evening that kinda going along with the many things i’ve been thinking about lately. I’ll share it….

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 What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you? You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.”  -James 4:1-3

    It’s a pretty intense passage. I don’t think I have fought or quarreled about the things I’ve wanted…. or have i?  I had to sit back and think about that and then I realized i had! I fought with my husband, I’ve thought mean thoughts about others, and i’ve had arguements with my own self over this whole business thing!  It’s the same for the next part too… it may say Kill….and it probably did mean that but for me it’s not literal…. it’s metaphorical…it goes to my thoughts and anger. Don’t forget that it says in the Bible that  “‘You must not murder. If you commit murder, you are subject to judgment.’[c] 22 But I say, if you are even angry with someone,[d] you are subject to judgment!” – Matthew 5:21-22. 

   As i sat and thought about what to do i realized with this decision to start my own business i never did the most important thing…I never asked God about it…not seriously anyways. See God loves giving us our hearts desires…but we must do it in His timing and ask for His help.  I didn’t do that! So i guess i doomed it myself.  Because it says that we need to have the right motives at heart as well when we ask… again i don’t think i did. I just wanted it for myself and for my earthly wants.

    I have to say that in looking for a job now that i have a lot of peace about it… sure i’m nervous and excited but i also feel peace. I do want it so that i can get out and away every now and then…. but i also want it to help out teachers, to help out my family, and to teach. I have still done a lot of work in looking at other places… but everything keeps leading back to a “yes” so far with subbing at the schools.

     So for now i’m happy with this path I’m on… never know God might send me on a different one yet but It’s been interesting where He’s heading me right now. It’s always fun and interesting when i find a verse that makes me think and helps me make decisions!

Anyways….. just my thoughts for today!

Frog

weariness….

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     Today I am Weary! At first i thought it was my depression sinking into me again. But as i sit here and exam it closer… i realized it was more weariness then anything else. If you have ever dealt with depression you know how hard it can be to “feel” any emotion but sadness and despair…but here i am and able to think and process and know that that’s not what i’m feeling right now. NOPE! Well there might be a little of that lurking in the background but i’m working on pushing that out of my way until i can work through it.

        I just feel overwhelmed, underwhelmed, stressed, bored, excited, and afraid all at once and i guess that has led to this deep down bone numbing weariness. So many things going on around here, it being summer and the kids are out of school, plus looking for a good part time job, then having to look for a new Life Group (sunday school class) four ourselves and putting ourselves out there, trying to work on also my jewelry business (it’s not going so well really, the only time i have customers is at events…no orders means no business) , also family stuff, and lastly adjusting to a new place and the budget for the new place.

     All of this has made me just a little uncertain and lets face it a little crazy about everything. Then someone posted a verse today…and i was like “that is soooo me!!!”

28 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”” —-Matthew 11:28-30

I always forget this verse…. it’s the most helpful verse but it’s the one i forget the most. I so need to go down on my knees and hand it all over to Him as i so can’t do this…. the more i think about it the more i become frustrated and angry. That of course won’t help at all… except to make it worse! So i loved having this reminder today to just take a deep breath and know the God’s got this!!!

Just a few thoughts for today.

Frog

Judgement….

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    So i’ve been trying to write another blog post and it just was NOT sounding right. So i saved the draft and let myself just relax and think. I realized i wanted my view heard, I wanted it to be recognized and acknowledged. That’s just not going to happen in the world we live in today. And that’s ok.

Today i read a devotional by Lysa Terkuerst about being that one that didn’t get invited. Wow…she said clearly how I have felt most of my life. BUt she went on and talked about how we can not let that define us. It’s not our identity….  And i realized that’s exactly what I have been doing. I’ve let it’s define me….I no longer see myself as “Monica, art lover, animal lover, caring person, and just a little zany” but I see myself as “monica, girl not invited, not cared about, in the way, and isn’t worth much.”

      This is such a painful way to see yourself. No worries, I’m working on not seeing myself in this light anymore. It’s a slow road. But it brings me to something that hit me today and that is: How we see ourselves often influences how we treat other people.

       Let that sink in for a moment. And here’s the verses I read that helped me see this.

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“My dear brothers and sisters,[a] how can you claim to have faith in our glorious Lord Jesus Christ if you favor some people over others?

For example, suppose someone comes into your meeting[b] dressed in fancy clothes and expensive jewelry, and another comes in who is poor and dressed in dirty clothes. If you give special attention and a good seat to the rich person, but you say to the poor one, “You can stand over there, or else sit on the floor”—well, doesn’t this discrimination show that your judgments are guided by evil motives?

Listen to me, dear brothers and sisters. Hasn’t God chosen the poor in this world to be rich in faith? Aren’t they the ones who will inherit the Kingdom he promised to those who love him? But you dishonor the poor! Isn’t it the rich who oppress you and drag you into court? Aren’t they the ones who slander Jesus Christ, whose noble name[c] you bear?

Yes indeed, it is good when you obey the royal law as found in the Scriptures: “Love your neighbor as yourself.”[d] But if you favor some people over others, you are committing a sin. You are guilty of breaking the law.

10 For the person who keeps all of the laws except one is as guilty as a person who has broken all of God’s laws. 11 For the same God who said, “You must not commit adultery,” also said, “You must not murder.”[e] So if you murder someone but do not commit adultery, you have still broken the law.

12 So whatever you say or whatever you do, remember that you will be judged by the law that sets you free. 13 There will be no mercy for those who have not shown mercy to others. But if you have been merciful, God will be merciful when he judges you.” James 2:1-13

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I know this is a lot so i’m just going to talk about how i feel about these verses and what i got from them.

To me this whole thing tells me that i can not put one person above another…in my home, in my work area, in public, in private…. and so on. I should not make ANYONE more important than another of my human companions. Yes we should show respect to our bosses and leaders (still working on this) but they are NOT more important than say my next door neighbor.This goes for that person that may not have invited you to an event. Just because they didn’t invite you don’t let that person become more important than others…including yourself.

The last part really struck me… if we do not show mercy then God is not going to show US mercy! To me i figured this means forgiveness as well. If i don’t forgive all the people that have hurt me then i’m not showing mercy…I’m letting all those feelings fester inside of me and God is going to judge me on that! That’s a scary thought!! I think this includes all those little times that i had a pang or fit of jealousy that i wasn’t included. We are not to envy…jealousy is in a sense just another name for Envy. So it is something i definitely need to work on!

So…in a sense…no matter who we are, how much money we have, how many friends we have or don’t have….we’re all the same…we’re all important to the same degree to God and we should treat each other the same way. If we let our jealousy/envy, or our hurts rule us than we’re not going to be able to do the main command from the Lord….. “Love One Another, As I have LOVED YOU!”

Anyways…. I know i didn’t touch on all of the verses in this one and i will later on I promise. 🙂 The Book of James is totally worth it.

Just what i’ve been thinking about and learned about.

Frog

Be Courageous…

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    Yesterday i was sick…nothing serious, just harsh cough and just totally wiped out! So today I’m hoping to get two in. if not today then i definitely will tomorrow! Anyways….

    I shared my favorite verse the other day. Now this one for today is not really my favorite but i saw it on a Bible Cover and knew i needed to have this reminder in my life.

 

Just as the other one reminds me to not be afraid or anxious…this one reminds me it’s not just enough to no longer be afraid…but i need to take that next step and be STRONG!! be COURAGEOUS!! It reminds me of the movie Courageous….if you haven’t watched it yet… please do so!! (note take Kleenex box with you!) I won’t say more so i don’t ruin it for those that haven’t seen it. 🙂

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“This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”  Joshua 1:9

  I love how this opens up with “this is my command”. Again we are told that we are to do this, no if ands or buts!  It goes on to say “be strong and courageous” but it also says in the next sentence “do not be afraid or discouraged” So this is what i was talking about. Isaiah 41:10 is a great verse! But when we look at this one it gives us more info….not only are we not to be afraid or discouraged…but we are to be strong. When they say strong i don’t think they mean physically. I think this means spiritually. We need to be firm, steadfast. And then we need to go yet another step though, we need to be courageous. We need to be able to take those leaps of Faith. We need to know that God is going to handle this.

           The last part is again His promise that He is going to be with us. No matter what, and no matter where He’s going to be right there beside us to help us, guide us, and most of all when we are lacking those first two qualities He will give them to us and then some. 🙂 Isn’t that awesome?

It’s a short verse… but has a lot of meaning to me anyways. Back to the devotional verses tomorrow. 🙂

Hope you enjoyed it!

Frog

My Favorite Verse…

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     Today I’m taking a break from blogging devotional verses. Think i might take a break tomorrow too. I am going to share with you my favorite verse that i go to when i’m having an anxiety attack or just feeling very afraid.  It means so much to me that i painted it onto my nightstand. It’s in the garage now but as soon as i figure out where i want it it’s coming back inside. Here’s a Photo of it.

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 May not be the most awesome design in the world, but it works for me. 🙂

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Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.
    Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you.
    I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

    “Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.”  To me this is yet another reminder from a different author that we are not to be afraid. No if ands or buts. We are NOT to be afraid. I remember someone once telling me that God did not give us a spirit of fear…He gave us a spirit of joy and PEACE. When i read that first part it just hammers in that fact more so. 🙂

      But it does tell us why we are not to be afraid. Because He is with us. How sweet is that? But i also see it as i AM with you…. sternly reminding us that now matter what he’s not leaving us.

    “Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God.” So for discouraged i see that as frustrated or annoyed. We shouldn’t be frustrated or annoyed with whatever we might be facing in our lives….but the next part is a bit of a twist i think. “for I am your God” Well for me this reminds me that it’ll be easier to NOT be afraid or discouraged, frustrated, or annoyed when we call God OUR God…as in we’ve asked Him into our lives not just as a guest but as the master at the wheel.  We need to remember this part.  People are so quick to use God like a genie and grant their wishes. I’m just as guilty about this. It’s so easy to just say “God help me with this…” and then move on and do things just like we did before. Not so good. 😦

      “I will strengthen you and help you.” If we have Him as our God then we can count on Him to give us the strength…but also Peace, Joy, Love, Wisdom, and so on to deal with anything that we might have going on in our lives. He will help us, He’s going to be there to help us emotionally, spiritually, and possibly even physically if the need is there. It’s not going to come in the form of what we think it should be though, so i think that though it says He’s going to be there and do these things we need to also have our minds and hearts open to that help.

         “ I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.”  If He is going to hold us up with His right hand then boy we don’t have anything to worry about at all! Think of it this way if your favorite hero comes and tells you that they are going to protect you with their right hand then you’d know that you’re all set right? I mean God is saying the same thing right here. “victorious”  Yes He’s won so many battles…. just look in exodus and such about the Israelites and getting to the promise land. He helped them so much! He even cleared the way for them in many areas. Everywhere in the Bible it talks of His victories… so we have proof and evidence that if He says that He’s going to hold us up and help us then He’s going to do it and He’s going to WIN! Just remember that it’s HIS will we need to be following…not ours.

Well there you go. My favorite verse. 🙂 Hope you enjoyed it! These are just my thoughts and ramblings..I’m no professional!

Frog

Fear Affects Obedience…

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       This weekend was hard and I’m glad i decided to take the weekend off of blogging. Discovered some things that really hurt and felt vulnerable in other areas and i let it ruin my sunday. Also coming down with a cold. No fun! I almost felt like not blogging today too…but I need to for me.  Right there is an example of how fear can affect obedience…if i hadn’t grabbed my laptop then i would’ve let my fears win.

      Today’s blog I’m going to take a bit of a different direction. Instead of doing a phrase by phrase break down i’m just going to list the verse and post my thoughts and may add some of what the lady from the devotional wrote and leave it at that.  Here we go….

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“And she made this vow: “O Lord of Heaven’s Armies, if you will look upon my sorrow and answer my prayer and give me a son, then I will give him back to you. He will be yours for his entire lifetime, and as a sign that he has been dedicated to the Lord, his hair will never be cut.”      1 Samuel 1:11

        To give a little back story on what the devotional was about… The writer gave a wonderful story about her son and wanting to become a Missionary and had dedicated her kids to the Lord when they were younger, but when it came time for them to follow their hearts to go out in the “field” it was hard to follow through and let them go. In doing so she showed that not only was she not obedient to God but she passed that on to her kids. It all worked out in the end, but it was something to think about.

        When i look at this verse i not only see the part of letting go of our kids but i see also the part where we want something so bad: a friend, a good job, a new home, and so on…that we say to God “if you grant me this I’ll….!” How many times do we do this? How many times do we then follow through with our promises? I have to say that i’m not that great at promises. I’m a very forgetful person and it’s only gotten worse as we had more kids.

         I think that when we ask for something that is deeply important to us that we plan on giving it back to Him. I mean it’s not ours anyways right? Everything on this earth is on loan to us till we pass away and get our permanent homes in Heaven. I don’t think this means that every time we give it back physically like Hannah did in this verse…but i think it means dedicating it and giving to God the Glory. Like if i prayed for a new job and that job provided for my family then i would make sure that i tithed at my Church so that i could give back to the Lord for answering my prayer. Does this mean that if i do this I’ll get what i want?? NO!! That is not what this is saying.

        When i look at the verse i see that first part and know that she was hurting so bad emotionally, spiritual…that it was causing her PHYSICAL pain! I think this goes back to the verse i did a week or so ago about desires of our hearts. We are free to go to the Lord with our desires of our hearts, we can say to Him “Lord, I’m just so broken up about this right now!! Please Lord see my pain…but Lord I want to follow YOUR will for myself.”  I think when we pray with our whole heart, but also give it completely over to Him that we please God more than anything else.

So all in all this verse taught me a lot about how my fears can keep me from doing something that is i should be doing… but it also means i could be holding my kids back. It showed me that i need to go to God with my whole heart but also i need to make sure i’m ready for that answer of HIS will. I also need to remember my promises to the Lord and give back to Him when He does answer my prayers with a yes.

      I probably could’ve gone into better detail and i might redo this later with a phrase by phrase type deal. But i wanted to try something different this time. 🙂

Thanks for reading!

Frog

Where We Stand..

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      Today i procrastinated a bit… my husband was home sick and spending some quiet time with our toddler just watching cartoons, so i took the opportunity to work on re-painting our living room. I got it about halfway done and felt really proud of myself. Until i realized i was procrastinating to sit down and read my devotional and work on my blog. So i put things away for the day and hopped to it so to speak.

     The devotional for today talked about standing firm in your life. Either it be a Faith thing, work related, home related, friendships, and so on. It made me think of all the times i was wishy washy on where i stood with my faith because i didn’t want to churn the waters and just wanted to keep the peace. It made me think of saying yes to a paint color i really didn’t like just to please my husband and to finally paint….when we are this way it doesn’t turn out well at all! Like with the paint, saying yes to it made me bitter, it wasted money, and it led to arguments and then my husband feeling angry and bitter as well. See… nothing good came out of that…except maybe as an example. Ha!

       Today’s verse is again a short one but i think it’ll be just as good.

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“Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong.” 1 Corinthians 16:13

      “Be on guard.” I looked up other translations and they had you or your added in to it. It made me think that this isn’t about being on guard for other people but Yourself! When you read it like “Be on YOUR guard”… to me it says that we need to be watching what we are saying, doing, and bringing into our lives. We need to stop a moment and say “this is not healthy for me” or “this is NOT what i believe in and i can not give in to it”.

      “Stand firm in the faith.” This was the almost the same in every translation. I guess no matter how you want to say it it’s that simple. If this is your Faith…then you need to stand firm in it! Don’t be all “well i believe this part of it… but not this part here”.  What does that tell other people? That you don’t trust this thing you believe in. If it was me i wouldn’t want to be a part of something someone isn’t sure they even want to be a part of it.  We need to STAND firm. We have to stand and be sure that this is what we want and model that.

       “Be courageous.”  I think this is telling us to not be afraid again. (like we talked about in the last blog) I could totally see the author standing there like a coach or something saying “Let’s do this! DOn’t be afraid! Fight for that win!” Doesn’t this mean violance? i don’t think so. I think it means that it means standing up and pointing out to a person that what they might be doing is wrong.  Like morally wrong. If you see someone cheating on their marriage, or on a test, or on their taxes. If you see someone physically or verbally abusing someone then lets stand up and be couragous and say “hey! i don’t think that’s right!”

        “Be Strong.”   Could this mean physically? Possibly. But i don’t think that’s what they are going for here. I think they are meaning that we need to be just that…strong but in the spiritual since. We need to work on equipping ourselves for daily onslaughts that might be trying to bring us down. We need to cloth ourselves in that full body spiritual armor. Making sure we are reading His word, understanding it, going to Church, having those close Christian friends that help lift us back up when we feel beat down. It’s making sure we are putting safe and healthy boundaries up for ourselves.  I think this is what it means when it wants us to be “strong”.

     I don’t know about you but i definitely need to work on these areas! Lots of good things to think on and how to put them in place. 🙂

I hope you have enjoyed reading! I’m no professional…but i am a woman just trying to learn more about the Bible and love sharing that with you!

Frog

Paralyzed By Fear..

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    Have you ever been paralyzed with fear? I have been..  Many times as a child, as a young adult, and then later on as a mother.  There are so many things that can paralyze us from going forward… as i have gotten older they seem to get worse and actually stick with me. When i was a kid things like this would stop me in the moment but then the next thing you knew i’d be running around again like nothing happened. I guess because i never really sat down and processed them that it’s catching up to me now.

       What are some of the things that can bring us fear?  For myself I listed mine down and I’ll share them with you.

     My Fears

  • the fear of never truly being loved by my husband
  • Never being seen as beautiful by anyone
  • Never being seen as important
  • never being able to driver long distance again
  • that i will never be able to trust my husband to help me no matter what
  • That God truly does not see me as Important.

 

It’s a pretty intense list… at least to me it is. Specially that last one! Here i am…a Christian, I see myself as a daughter of God and I try to follow His commands. But i still don’t feel like He sees me as Important. I know that until i work through this one none of those others will budge. I know that until I get right with God my every day life is going to be a struggle. Because you can’t say that you follow God and still try to do everything on your own. It just turns into a mess that way.

Today’s verse is about God’s promise to be with us….and more. Let’s go….

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“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
    I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you go through deep waters,
    I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
    you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
    you will not be burned up;
    the flames will not consume you.” Isaiah 43:1b-2 NLT

It’s a bit long but I think all of it is important.

“Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you…”  Whenever I see the words “Do not” in the BIble i see the not in all caps. So in the first part the author is telling us to NOT be afraid. Easier said than done right? Then it goes on to say “for i have ransomed you”. Well who ransomed us? You have to look a little bit further back to the beginning of verse 1 to know that this is the Lord speaking. So the Lord is saying HE has ransomed us…. Ok so ransom means that someone gives money or something else of value to get that person or thing back from someone bad. To me this means God has given someone bad (probably Satan) something of great value to make sure HE got us back. 

“…I have called you by name; you are mine.”  To me that first part means that He has called us out, He knows us, not just knows about us…but He knows us personally and intimately. And that last part…”YOU ARE MINE!!” Said with authority, and probably with love as well. There is no doubt what He is wanting to say here.  

When you go through deep waters,  I will be with you.”  I think this means that we don’t have to worry about having too many demands and pressures of the world. Because He will be with us holding us up. 

When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown.”  To mean this means even when things get rough and overwhelming to us He’ll be there again holding us up and making sure to take on the load Himself as well.

When you walk through the fire of oppression,  you will not be burned up…”  Again He’s saying that no matter how much is weighing you down or trying to consume you it will not effect you because He won’t let it. Don’t you you love how when He wants to make sure you get the point He’ll have the author write them down in threes? All three of those lines are saying the same thing but a little different each time to make sure we are paying attention and knowing that HE will be there for us no matter what!

the flames will not consume you.”  Sums it all up right here. Nothing can consume us….no flames…nor worries… nor fears will touch us as long as we are with HIM each day in prayer, trust, reading the Bible, and even our actions. 

This verse is hard for me… I’ll admit it. It’s hard giving up and letting go of the edge of the pool and swim out knowing someone will be there to grab us and help us if we need it. We want to know, we want to control, and we want a certainty….We can’t have that certainty until we let go of those first two i think and I think i’m going to be working on those from now on.

I hope you enjoyed reading this!

Frog

The Start of Fears…

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   Now this isn’t a post about how Fears starts…nope! This is a post about how i received a cool devotional in the mail yesterday that i had forgotten about. It’s a 30 Day Devotional about FEARS! Woohoo! I mean seriously…this is totally for me! It still amazes me that I went from being a woman with no fears about driving, loving it to pieces really, to a woman that can’t drive past her son’s school about 2 miles away without flipping out. It’s a constant heartache and headache for myself and my family.

So this and some other fears spurred me to buy/donate to get this devotional that i saw on the Proverbs 31 Ministeries’ website. After i wrote yesterday’s post, I knew i wanted to keep going forward but i was floundering for what to write about. Nothing seemed to jump out at me or say “write about me” when i read things. I felt like i was forcing it.

Anyways…then the devotional came and i got hit in the head with an idea of taking the main verse for the devotionals and writing or breaking them down so i could better understand them. 🙂  So that is what I am going to do for the next month or so.  Enjoy!

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I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. 13 For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” Phillipians 4:12-13

Let’s see…

I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything…”  To me the word “live” is said with an exclamation mark. “I know how to LIVE!” It’s like the author is saying he has found the secret to life… how to make it wonderful no matter what. So you already get a glimpse of what this verse is all about. Then it talk about “on almost nothing”, so this is talking about not having anything, being poor or destitute. To me i think this is telling us that the author understands these problems and is telling us “save it, I’ve been there and experienced that…you can’t tell me that i don’t understand, because i DO”. In other words…Leave your excuses at the door. Ha! 

But then he mentions “or with everything”. So is he trying to say that having everything is not all that it’s cracked up to be? Is he saying that we don’t know how to live when we don’t have to worry? I kinda think he means both of those. There’s that silly saying “More Money, More problems” and i think that fits here….I’ve never seen a truly happy rich person. Have you? If you have please tell me… i’d love to meet them and ask them questions. But i digress, we have two opposite ways of living and the author states he knows how to LIVE (probably meaning how to be thankful) in both of these situations.

I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little.”  Well here he is stating with authority that, yes he does know exactly what to do. But look closely, he doesn’t say he KNOWS, nope he says “i have LEARNED”. To me this means that there was probably a lot of trial and error… probably emphasize that error part. I love how he puts “the secret of living”. I think it’s his way of making us lean in and make sure we don’t miss this next part. 

For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.”   Well there you go. Right there in black and white is the secret to living. Take a look at the word “through” … he doesn’t say with…but THROUGH Christ. To me, I think this means that as long as we go to God first and don’t expect our way to be done that He will be there and help us. But only if we seek Him and petition HIM before each day. I think it also means we may not always like the answer either…He may tell us to wait or that awful “NO” word….But even if that is the case He’s still going to give us that peace to keep going. 

That last part just helps confirm that. “who gives me STRENGTH”…No matter what, an anxiety attack on the highway, or a lost spouse or child or friend, or a marriage falling a part, or an abusive situation, or just a bad day at work…. NO MATTER WHAT!! He will give us the strength to deal with, to get away from, or to grieve the loss. He’ll be right there shouldering our fears and our pain. He’ll be there even when things are going right..to enjoy and celebrate those as well.

I don’t know about you but reading that and understanding that makes me feel a hundred times better and all warm and gooey inside….like smores….mmmm.  God’s promises are like Smores. I think i might copyright that and slap it on a t-shirt to wear every day! LOL!

 

Hope you enjoyed this!

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