God is showing me that I need to wait on Him. I don’t want to settle anymore. Why would I want to settle with just getting by when He has sooo much better waiting for me? All I have to do is reach out, and strive for listening to the Holy Spirit. I mean…it’s that easy! Then why do I make it so hard? Why do I always seem to take the easy road? Why do I just “settle” when I know that’s not what I want?
That brings to mind the verse I love hearing and reading…
Romans 7:15-20 New International Version (NIV)
15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
Even Peter…one of Jesus’ main 3 friends, prophets, disciples, struggled with this. God knew we would still struggle, just like Peter, so He made sure to have this verse written just for us.
Even as Believers, we strive for what is good, right, and the truth, but we still live in this world where sin dwells and tempts us. To me this verse isn’t saying I have a free pass to just go ahead and “do it” but reminding me to be more on guard for these things, and not to be too hard on myself when I mess up.
Jesus knows what temptation, and this world is like. He lived here. He laughed, cried, and loved. Not in a romantic type…but He loved his family on Earth, He loved his friends. He is such a good example to me about how to love others, even when they or myself mess up. We are called not to judge, that’s God’s job. I’m learning that I don’t want to do God’s job, it’s hard, it’s stressful, it can make you physically sick.
Nope I’m happy I don’t have to do His job.
This verse…. it reminds me to be honest with myself. So I’m going to keep working on things like:
- Daily Bible Reading
- Nonstop Prayer
- Not letting Food control me
- Putting a better filter on my mind
- And Loving Others Better
That last one is really hard right now. I so want to get to know and love some amazing people. But I’m still hurting and it’s made me a little hand shy… But! I’m going to work on it!
If you take anything away from this…know this. True Believers…they are all those things of loving, nonjudgmental, giving and so on….but are not perfect! They’re the ones that are open about how broken they were, their actions match with their words, but most of all when they mess up they are quick to ask for forgiveness. Don’t listen to those out there that say you have to be a certain way!! Jesus said to “come as you are” so never let how you look, where you’re at, what you have done….stop you from finding God’s Love.
Because….God’s Love is more amazing than anything else you will experience in your life! It’s not going to be easy afterwards. It’ll be harder. You’ll still have trails, you’ll still have all that…but man…the Peace, Wisdom, and Strength God gives to His children is…. I don’t know how to describe it…. I guess it’s like a breathe of fresh air after being stuck in a room filled with 2 month old manure. HA HA!!
Praying for you, Dear Readers…..