The Trumpets…

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I have to say that this last week has been a roller coaster. But it’s been a good and amazing roller coaster! I’m sticking with no more social media for myself. I mean my posts still post there but I’m no longer looking at the news feeds and kinda handed DH and I’s joint account over to him. 🙂 It’s been wonderful! “M” and I play games, watch tv, or I’ll spend time here typing while he works on his imagination (quiet play time or working on his letters).

This last week was kinda hard as “J” was down for the count with the Flu, It’s absolutely horrible this year! I was worried sick that he was going to develop pneumonia again, his chest sounded so bad! Thankfully they got him on super strong cough/expectorant meds. Unfortunately this stuff seemed to turn him into an energizer bunny instead of making him sleepy LOL!

Why am I typing all this? What does this have to do with the Trumpets in Revelation? I’ll tell you…. With each one a Third of something is going to die.  From humans to objects in the sky. It made my think of my 3 boys….One is  Saved, but struggles with doing the right thing, I have one that is devouring the scripture every night reading it, asking tons of questions that forces me to study harder, but he refuses to claim God. Then I have my youngest… he’s not old enough to know what is all this information, but he’s learning and if you spend time with him at one point he’ll tell you about “the angel tell Mary, she had a baby”

As parents we want our kids to believe like us. I’m very laid back about it, though we do have a rule that they must attend Church with us, we do not force anything else on them. We answer questions and we tell them why it’s important to us. I could go into a whole big thing about this really, but the gist of it is that because i believe in the Bible and that the whole Bible is true, I worry about my kids and the times that have to come. I think about the Trumpets and such; that a Third of everything is going to be dieing, that at one point those that are alive will beg for death and I think of my kids going through that and it breaks my “mommy heart” so much!

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There is not much put with each one but I’ll try to give my 2 cents too.

So with that….The First Trumpet. I don’t know who is going to do the throwing, but it does state that Hail and Fire mixed with Blood will be “thrown” down on to the Earth. I mean…umm hail and fire ok, but mixed with blood? That just went to a different level. One third of the earth will be on fire. Seeing as a lot of the Earth is water already that means a third of the land right? So maybe the size of North America, or even add in South America for good mearsure. That much of land just burning. Then on top of that a third of the tress will be destroyed and all the green grass. This is important, Trees and plants are what make oxygen for us to breathe, so that means if there are people still here it’s going to start getting hard to take a breath. Slowly suffocating. *shudders*

I’m a visual thinker. As i read something my brain rapidly makes up a picture for me to see in my head that is realistic.  As i read these lines i pictured people suffering and then it brought my kids in the picture and for a moment “I” couldn’t breathe.

Then I read the Second Trumpet. A mountain…seriously…a MOUNTAIN of FIRE is thrown into the Sea. I’ve been watching Octonauts with my kiddo, and it made me think of under water volcanoes and thermal vents. Heating up to the point that the water would be boiling. It says that the Sea would become Blood, probably from the fact a third of the sealife is killed and ships are destroyed…. I knew i didn’t like to be on the water for a reason! *cough* Actually i can’t swim so i just stay on dry land, thank you.

For the Third Trumpet a giant star that burns like a torch falls to the earth touching a third of the rivers and streams. It has a name, says so in the Bible. Some translations say Wormwood, and others say “Bitterness”, they are the same thing. Which is appropriate seeing as all the river and streams it touches turns the water bitter.  It also states that anyone that drinks of the bitter water would die as well.

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I have to say that this gave me pause. I got to thinking that Jesus when alive on earth, called Himself the “Living Water”, it’s the story about Him and the woman at the Well in chapter 4 of the book of John. It’s a good read! Check it out! But anyways. How true it is that Jesus/God can give us Life giving Water, and if we drink of the Bitterness that is so common it slowly kills us. I’m learning quickly how much Bitterness i still have for a lot of people in my past and how it is affecting me here today.  Just like it says in Revelation 8:11 “and many people died from drinking the bitter water.” It reminded me not to drink of the bitter water, but of the Living Water that i have free access to.

Ok back to the Fourth Trumpet…

This one effects the sky. but it’ll effect those on earth too. If there is not enough heat you freeze, if you have too much heat you burn. (i mean the earth is already burning but still) A third of the sun, moon, and the stars go dark.  Then on top of this a third of the day and night are also dark. So much darkness. It makes me think of how dark things look when we close God out of our lives. The comedian Michael Jr. said that some of us put God in the “Good room”; you know that room that is right inside of the front door that no one is allowed to go into under penalty of “mom” or “grandma”. The rest of the house is a mess! But that one room is perfect and Jesus is only allowed there. I LOVED this visual for myself. if i have bitterness then how am i letting Jesus into all of my life?  Anyways… that’s what it got me thinking about.

This chapter ends with a warning…. a warning that sends chills up your spine. I’m learning that reading Revelation is not for the faint of heart, and also NOT to be read right before bed…. did that mistake once. Never again! The nightmares were horrible. I’m sticking to the morning time, might be heavy for then but yeah….much better!

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The warning:

13 Then I looked, and I heard a single eagle crying loudly as it flew through the air, “Terror, terror, terror to all who belong to this world because of what will happen when the last three angels blow their trumpets.”” Rev. 8:13

Think of it… the only sounds are flames crackling, people crying (those still alive), a lot of the stars are now missing so the sky is even more quiet, if you’re still alive and all of a sudden you hear a cry of “terror” being yelled…. i mean the only word that comes to mind is “hopelessness”.  It’s make me not want to belong to the world anymore that’s for sure!

Some might think “well this was drepressing”. You’re right! Revelation is not a book of happiness in the beginning. But remember…the ending is always the same God prevails, and those that follow Him and call Him their Savior will win in the end. The ending is that Happily Ever After that we all look for.

I hope this didn’t freak you out too much. Hopefully i didn’t get too off track too much. HAHA! Thanks for reading my silly prose. 🙂

Frog

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The Seals…

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I have learned that right now God is trying to teach me something. So I’m spending a crazy amount of time in the Word (as much as my kids will let me), surrounding myself with worship music. I find He whispers to me more through songs on the radio, I think He knows this is my Love Language with Him. Not in some weird, loosing my mind kinda way. HA! But it’s how i can hear words of encouragement the most.

Anyways this has given me time to dive into the 3 final seals, remember the first 4 are the Horsemen, now we see glimpses into Heaven and Earth at the same time from here. It can be confusing as to where the Author(John) is at every now and then. But one thing is for sure, I don’t want to be on Earth after the Seals are done.

This could get into a debate about when the Tribulation is going to happen. Let me point you to the beginning again Rev1:19 “Write down what you have seen—both the things that are now happening and the things that will happen.” Some of this has already happened, so the Tribulation can not happen at the beginning, now can it? Maybe at the beginning of the severe suffering? Maybe… But I think I lean to it happening more towards the middle. 

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When I left off last time we talked about this The Rider “Death” and “Hades/the Grave” his companion had been released onto the earth. I mean what could be worse than that?

The 5th Seal is broken, nothing bad happens here. The souls that had been martyred cry out to the Lord from at the foot of the alter, asking when they will be avenged. They are given White Robes…ok i have to be honest, i pictured in my head white snuggies and bunny slippers, in the middle of all this terrible things my mind wanted me to picture something silly. I’m sure they are stunningly white, the kind of robes that maybe priests or royalty wore at one time.

But their question is also answered, they are told to rest for a bit longer (snuggie, seriously hahaha), but the reason why is a sobering one. “until the full number of their brothers and sisters[f]—their fellow servants of Jesus who were to be martyred—had joined them.” uhmm…. what? As i read this line i had a feeling of ice water being poured over me. If you’ve never experienced that… you become instantly wake, alert, and your whole body goes into shock (spasms). Yet more need to be martyred.

I knew when i gave my life to Christ that this might be asked of me one day. No one wants to die, not this way especially.  Last night as i was driving, i was thinking about this. I knew it, I knew trials would be given to me…. i KNEW that by being a FOLLOWER of Christ life would be harder, but yet so fulfilling if i just let go of that “steering wheel of control”.  It was a pretty “light bulb moment” for me, i guess i haven’t given Him full control just yet, gonna work on that.

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Anyways…onward!!

The 6th Seal is broken by the Lamb that was Slain. As it is broken an earthquake great in size happens, then the sky begins to change. I love the imagery John brings into this. It says the Sun was as dark as Black Cloth, the Moon as red as blood. Then the stars start to fall to earth like figs shaken from their tree in a strong wind. (i looked up videos on youtube, pretty neat!…and scary) He goes on to say that “the sky rolled up like a scroll, the mountains and islands moving”, if you’re not sure how that looks i imagine thinking along the lines of a play curtain moving out of the way and the props shifted for the main show to start.

It swings to the people on earth, EVERYONE, no matter skin, station, or anything all hide in caves and BEG for death, crying “the Day of the Lambs Wrath has come!” Ya’ll seriously, at one point our outward appearance or money status is not going to matter…we’re all going into those caves and going to BEG for death before the Lamb has His wrath.

Before the last Seal is broken we see a scene where an Angel comes and tells the 4 standing at the 4 corners to wait. He is going to put the seal of the Living God on the chosen, or the 144,000 that we’ve heard about. If you haven’t these are the 12,000 persons from each of the 12 tribes of Israel.

After this we cut back up to Heaven, were a great crowd in white robes and waving palm branches. It says that these have washed their robes in the blood of the Lamb, now they are white. But it also states where they came from… the tribulation, “the suffering”. ahhh we haven’t heard of this happening but it does state that these people/souls are from that time. The most we know is that this happens before the 7th Seal is broken. That’s it. We can make ourselves go crazy trying to figure it out but remember God is the only one that knows the “true” time.

He breaks the 7th Seal, there is utter silence through out Heaven. At first i thought this said through out the Heavens and Earth…but no just the Heavens. But is the Heavens go quiet that is still going to be a very unsettling time. Which they give an amount of time here, one half hour. For 30 minutes (Earth or Heaven time not sure) there won’t even be a pin dropping up there. We see 7 angels come to the throne and are given trumpets. But before that another comes holding an incense burner.

He is given a great amount of incense to mix with God’s people’s prayers, and at the Golden Alter they are poured out as the smoke ascends to God who is above the alter. But he’s not done, he takes the fire that is on the alter and puts it into the incense burner. From there the angel throws it on to the earth. Immediately there are bellows of thunder and crashes of lightning, and another terrible earthquake.  It doesn’t say that the Earth catches fire but…. that’s still pretty intense!!

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You would think that’s it. done. all the bad stuff is now gone. NOPE! Don’t forget that those angels with the 7 trumpets are there. And they are waiting…. for what? I read a little further and it looks like something is going to happen after each one. Fun!! 🙂

I want to say that from here there is no time given for WHEN things happen but there are times given for HOW LONG they are to happen. I thought that interesting and they are pretty exact too.

I hope this stirs some interest into you for reading Revelation and getting you’re own thoughts about it.

Frog

Actions…

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Today I did a bit of a detour, I knew i needed to. So i looked up what the Bible says about Conflict. I put into biblegateway search “conflict”. Every reference to that word i looked it up. I read the context, I looked around in other verses. I needed to hear these words. I needed to look at them and have them wash over me and judge my heart. I wanted to make sure if i needed to right something that i did so, but in a Bible honoring way.  (Galatians 6:1-9)

So the first places it brought up was Proverbs. And it hit me square in the eyes, after reading more i realized Proverbs states clearly what the Attributes of a Quarrelsome person are. I’ll list some:

*Plots Evil– i took from the verses that this is thinking over and over again about it, and seeking revenge, or trying to get your way out of something. Proverbs 6:14

*False Witness– from what i read it pointed at lies, twisting events, again trying to get the outcome you want. Proverbs 6:19

*Hatred– i had to look up the definition for this word. “an intense dislike, abhorrence, wishing ill will, loathing”. Wow. that’s a pretty harsh thing. Proverbs 10:12

*Hot Tempered– Ok i cringed at this one because i have this problem a lot, I’m much better but things still set me off. This from context meant “quick to anger”, “letting anger simmer under the surface”. Proverbs 15:18

*Perverse/Gossip– I had to look these up as well  P-“(of a person or their actions) showing a deliberate and obstinate desire to behave in a way that is unreasonable or unacceptable”, and G-“casual or unconstrained conversation or reports about other people, typically involving details that are not confirmed as being true.” In the Bible it states that this type separates people. Proverbs 16:28

*Greedy– I took this as wanting more, thinking “starved” I think we all know what greed looks like, nothing satisfies us…we crave and don’t care for the consequences. Proverbs 16:28

*Anger– self explanatory right? Definition is “a strong feeling of annoyance, displeasure, or hostility.” Proverbs 29:22

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Wow. I’m so guilty of many of these a lot of times. Who isn’t? Anger, Greed, and Gossip is so easy and even smiled upon anymore these days. It is such a temptation! Some of the other verses that showed up also helped and one of them we had just gone over in Sunday School Sunday, Galatians 5:17 :

 For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want.”

Our words, actions, thoughts need to align with one thing, one person…. Our Holy Father. If he puts something on our hearts we need to wake up and pay attention to it! We need to dive into this book called the Bible and see what HE says before putting into action what Jesus would have us do. Look at Jesus’ actions, how did he react to a similar issue? We need to think and not just let emotions rule us. The Flesh is going to want us to be selfish every time.

I am so guilty of this! But i need to be careful. For me personally I have learned that this is a good foothold for Satan in my life. I need to be careful of how long i dwell on things, because in the end Satan wants me to feel worthless, unwanted, and separated from God. And a good way for that to happen is to tell myself it is completely my fault and it would be just better if i removed myself. Which is not what God wants.

I found a verse that touched on that subject and made my heart sing, when i have this feeling I know that God is talking to me. He’s reaching down and wrapping His arms around me as He points to my heart and says “Here, My Daughter, these are My words to you right now, it may hurt but I LOVE YOU, and want you to grow.”

I am not sorry that I sent that severe letter to you, though I was sorry at first, for I know it was painful to you for a little while. Now I am glad I sent it, not because it hurt you, but because the pain caused you to repent and change your ways. It was the kind of sorrow God wants his people to have, so you were not harmed by us in any way. 10 For the kind of sorrow God wants us to experience leads us away from sin and results in salvation. There’s no regret for that kind of sorrow. But worldly sorrow, which lacks repentance, results in spiritual death.”     2 Corinthians 7:8-10

Ouch…it did hurt. It hurt a lot. As i read these words tears flowed down my face, I talked with God about how I was angry because i didn’t think i did wrong, I told Him that i was tired of conflict rearing up right when i start feeling safe to let my guards down. I told Him that i was sorry for my carelessness, I’m so flippant with my words, when i need to guard my tongue more. I confessed my sarcasm, and asked Him to search my heart if I had any sins that needed addressing that He show me and we both work on them together…Him forgiving and teaching, Me repenting and learning.

This morning typing this out i put in my soundproof headphones, put on my worship music and soaked in it. As i type this only uplifting words are being poured into my mind and soul. Songs have been coming onto my radio list that i normally don’t get, like Francesca Battistelli “He Knows My Name” & “Write Your Story”, 7eventh Time Down “The One I’m Running To”, Hawk Nelson “Diamonds”, Newsboys “Born Again”.They all seemed to scream to me:

I AM THE DAUGHTER OF THE ONE AND TRUE KING!!! I’M GOING TO WRITE MY STORY, I’M GOING TO GIVE “HIM” MY ALL, I’M GOING TO GIVE “HIM” MY WHOLE HEART. SATAN IS NOT GOING TO TAKE OVER MY EMOTIONS AND MAKE ME FEEL LESS THEN, AND IF HE TRIES THEN I’M GOING TO NAME IT AND NOT LET IT DEFINE ME!!! I AM HUMAN! I HAVE FAULTS! I HAVE MESS UPS! BUT I’M GOING TO DANCE AND WORSHIP MY KING!

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I’m going to keep going to Him for everything. I’m sure I’ll mess up again but I’m going to learn, and grow, and shout from the rooftops how He is working in me. I can’t wait to see what plan he has for me. I know it’s going to be amazing.

Sorry for being so intense today but this is what he’s put on my heart. I hope it speaks into you dear reader  and brings you growth and peace.  I encourage to look up the verses in the Bible translation that speaks to you and read them.  Here are a couple more that spoke to me that i didn’t go into: Habakkuk 1:3, Hebrews 10: 32, also the book of Matthew has a lot of good ones too.

Frog

The Four Horsemen..

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I have been doing morning Bible Study for myself. I’m not a morning person! But I find that my whole day is kinda off if i don’t spend a good 20 minutes of quiet reflection first thing. So like before I’m still in the book of Revelations. It’s a pretty heady book to study first thing in the morning! This morning i could only read a small portion as it was pretty intense!!

So last time i talked about the 7 churches and that God’s appearance is mentioned. This time I went over the 7 Seals of the Scroll.

The only person worthy to break these Seals, was the Slain Lamb (Jesus).

Let me say this disclaimer: “I believe that Jesus was not just a carpenter, prophet, good person… I believe that he was/is the one and only Son of God…I believe He was blameless, and died for us.”

Ok now that we got that covered. The first part of the Seals is the Four Horsemen.

The White Horse

I learned that there are many different ideas on what this Rider means, he could be the Anti-Christ, could be an angel to bring victory to God, some say Pestilence (disease). But i don’t agree with that last one…since itng along with one of the other Horsemen.  I kinda am torn between the first two. I do know that this Rider is given a Crown. To me that means he is given authority, he doesn’t already have it. It says the Rider carries a Bow and wins many battles.  We’re left with the question “what kind of battles? Good or Bad?” All we know for sure is that this Rider is a Conqueror. My thoughts is that it’s for the Good, why would this one do something that another Horseman will do? Just my thought.

The Red Horse

Ok I think we can all agree that this one is war. The Rider carries a sword, and the horse is Fiery Red, I can picture it a coppery Chestnut horse with flames coming from it’s mane,tail, and hooves.  Again it says this Rider is “Given” authority. This time to TAKE peace. In the NIV translation is says that “to make people kill each other”. That’s a sobering thought. I remember that my thought was that in this time right now it would not take much for this to happen. Everyone seems to be on a hairpin trigger and easily set up. It does state that this would be happening EVERYWHERE. Not just in one or two locations.

The Black Horse

This one took me looking at two translations to figure out, since I use mainly NLT, I got a NIV as well to consult. The Rider holds a Scale, I picture one like at the hall of justice, so I’m thinking judging? Nope. If you read further is talks about barley and wheat being a full day of wages. Also not to waste oil and wine. Though it doesn’t say the name, we start to get a picture of Famine. Prices will sky rocket, the necessities of food will become more precious then money.

The Pale Horse

In NLT it says “saw a horse whose color was pale green“, maybe a ghostly green like you see in horror movies. But i thought that interesting. It’s not just a “pale” horse, but a pale GREEN horse. This is the only Rider that has a companion, and it’s not a good thing. It is also the only one that is named.  Death. And his chum the Grave, some translations says “Hades”. They were also given authority. This is where we start seeing numbers for deaths. One Fourth. That is a pretty high number. I looked it up, right now there are 7.8 BILLION people in the world. and there are people being born and dieing every day. But we’ll use that number for this. So 1/4th of the population would be…1.95 BILLION people. They would be killed by sword, famine, disease, and wild animals. That last one made me shake my head.

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Are these all going to happen at once? Are they going to happen a little bit at a time over years, days? Minutes? We’re not given a glimpse into that answer. Remember no one… not even Jesus himself knows the hour it’s to all happen. Only God.

I do have to say that studying these made me look at the news in a different way. It also helped me to rein in my future thoughts, I need to be living in the here and now. Beacuse tomorrow is never promised.

For now this is as far as I’ve dug deep. Still got the 5th and 6th seals…and the 7th. Just gonna say, it doesn’t get better.

Hope these thoughts help someone, maybe it sparks an interest, maybe it makes you think a little bit more. Whichever, I’m glad i could share these thoughts with you.

Frog

 

My Testimony…

I know that my Testimony has kinda woven it’s way in here, but I’ve been encouraged to write it out, condense it a bit, Get a good flow and stuff. So… since many of you have been following me for quite awhile, thought it would be perfect to practice here.  So here it goes…

 

For the first 9 years everything was pretty normal. I mean, we lived with my grandparents, there were typical family drama, but nothing super crazy. Then one day it all changed in the third grade.  A boy who was offended by something my sister did, came to me at recess one day and out of no where told me that he wanted to kill my sister.  I was 9, I didn’t know how to process this, and my friend that was with me shoved me away from him and dragged me to a teacher as soon as possible.

There was a lot of stuff that happened after that, it got so bad that the police got involved.  The way the adults handled it left scars of mistrust of authority figures, of not feeling safe, and feeling so alone as no one talked with me about how to process the threats i received.  I was broken. Shortly after my sister got baptized and thinking this is what i needed, gave myself to Christ and got baptized in the year 1994.

I had thought this would fix everything, nope! We moved to a new town and just 2 almost 3 years later my mother was in a horrible car accident. She was in the ICU for a week I think, that time was super fuzzy.  Seeing her laying there was…scary, traumatic, and devastating. It happened on a Black Friday on her way to work, she didn’t come home till almost Valentines day.  During all of this was some emotional roller coasters physically and mentally for myself as well.  I stopped going to Church, I was angry, and hurt.

As my mom healed at home, I thought things would get better, just a year and a half later, a few days after my 15th birthday my grandmother passed away. This hit me so hard as she was my best friend. She taught me so much. I know she had her faults, but to me she was that one person in my family i could go to. I lost her…. no one helped me to process this either, just shove it down and move on. No one knew that i had had an argument with her just the week before about the type of people i was hanging around and that when she passed away i thought it was MY fault she had died.

I started acting out at this point, I went and stayed days on end with the kids that called themselves “Christians” while the slept around, abused each other, and shared drugs. I started drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes to fit in. Then one night some of the boys got into my journal and read that i was open to the physical, one of the boys who was way older took this to mean “i say yes no matter if i even say no”.  What hurt the most is that just a couple hours later, he was snuggled up with a different girl right in front of me.  To add insult to everything he and his ex wrote me a letter stating why he did it, that it was laughable that i thought he would even think about being with me for real, and that i would probably never have a real relationship do to me being so “fat” and worthless, so i should be thankful for this one time.

My parents did not know how to handle this, mom gave me books. It started my addiction to Romance/sex novels.  Right after this we got a computer and the internet, which opened the doors to AOL chatrooms, which led to phone sex, which led to more destructive behavior.  Then i started to meet the guys from online.  One i met started a very sick and twisted relationship on both our accounts. During this is when I cried out to God and He answered with a “NO” to ending my life. My parents shipped me off to college and that just opened the door for me to run off whenever to meet guys.  Through all of this I still called myself a Christian, if I was with religious men I’d go to church with them and do all I was supposed to do. But I did not trust God anymore, The guy I met in college was the furthest thing from the Faith as possible, thinking that was safer. It had to be better since those who claimed to be Christians were no better then me.

I quit college, and shortly after that and leaving the guy i had been with I found out I was pregnant and my twist relationship guy came back into my life. When I had my son at first i pretty much let my parents raise him, but slowly I started seeing things i didn’t like. I met a guy at my work, though i was still in toxic relationships and doing dangerous behavior…something about this guy drew me to him like a magnet.  I actually started going back to Church on my own, taking my mom and son with me. I started to leave relationships, and the chatrooms i enjoyed, and no longer smoking or drinking.

Both the gentleman and myself still were very broken  though, at one point it felt like i was in yet another toxic relationship but with him this time…i couldn’t handle it again, not again. I was so sick of being used and using others….I tried to end my life. It was not the first time…but the other were just mainly thoughts and nothing truly attempted…this time was different.  I took all of my sister’s 800mg ibuprofen i had on me (8 total). I thought my son was better off without me. Everyone would be better off without me. But God had other plans yet again for me. There was consequences though…. I won’t know if I killed a baby or not till the day I’m in Heaven. It tore me up, to wake up and know that God spared me, but I may have sacrificed a child in all of this.

There was a lot of ups and downs from there. But that gentleman and I are now married today. We moved across the country from our families, and though it was hard, it was the best thing for us.  We went to Church, we relied on each other, but we were still very broken. We both had addictions. They slowly tore at us both, along with expectations that were unattainable, and unmet by each other.  We both stepped out of our marriage. I did so in my mind, reading sex novels and thinking about what it would be like with someone else.

Finally, one night after just feeling totally defeated by this continued cycle of craziness, I talked with a Pastor online for our current Church we attended. He didn’t turn away, He leaned in and said…”I’m going to help you.” Those words were a life line!  Through this we started to work on our brokenness, after 2 years of counseling, recovery groups, we were better but we knew something still needed to be done.  I started to go to counseling on my own. We worked on my anxiety which had gotten totally out of control through all this.  I started studying the word more, I paid attention to services more, and started to clean up my actions.  I started my volunteering adventure, trying different types through the church or outside of it.  The one that helped the most was with the Horse Rescue. Everything seemed to fall into place for it, and through one on one counseling I was able to work on my addictions and so much more.

In this past year I have learned to lean into God in a new and amazing way! I enjoy going to Church, we have a new Sunday School class that is amazing and has truly helped me to step it up, I’m more confident then i was, and I am working hard and starting to enjoy waking before everyone else to spend a half hour reading, studying, and sometimes talking with God about what He is teaching me.  I still struggle… I still slip up… I’m still learning. But standing here and looking back…..man, I see how far God has pulled me out of that muck i put myself in and I’m truly amazed.

Look at what He has done for me! I was what the Bible would call a Harlot, an Adultress, I tried to take my own life, I justified my addictions as nothing serious….i was so broken.

So if you feel like “God can’t save me, I’ve done awful things!”…. you’re wrong. We are horrible sinners….only God is amazing at Forgiving!

Let me know what you think…. too wordy? not enough detail? Maybe it helped you…. feel free to leave a comment and say hi too!

Frog

 

Revelations…

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So recently I started a study on my own of Revelations.  This book is hard! I think because no one but God is to know the exact hours for the Second Coming. But I’m also learning so much!!

Did you know that all the cities for the “Seven Churches” had major earthquakes that demolished them? The only one with intact pillar/towers and with the now a days city thriving right with the ruins is the city of Philadelphia, Turkey.  All of the Churches are on the west coast of the country of Turkey. The six other cities have now a day towns but they are built up away from the ruins and some of their names have even changed.

Here’s a little of what i learned about each Church:

Ephesus- No longer had Agape Love towards God, If did not repent God would remove their Lamp stand (very serious!)

Smyrna- Had False Jews, Would suffer, but Rich in Christ!

Pergamum- Home of Satan’s Throne, Followers were Faithful, But were Tolerating pagan teachings.

Thyatira- Followers were constantly improving but they were allowing a false prophet to sway people to sin

Sardis- Reputation for being alive (maybe partying), but they are dead to following Christ, God said they had deeds unfinished

Philadelphia- The one God Loved (Rev. 3:9), has the synagogue of Satan, they will have an open door that none can close

Laodicea- Rev 3:15 (we need to decide!) , Lukewarm, wishy washy, They valued possessions over God

Just the first 3 chapters of this book and all the historical things i dug up is WOW! But what truly was cool in finding was when i started to read Chapter 4, in my Bible it is labeled “Worship In Heaven”, Did you know it describes the appearance of God in there? Not Jesus…but God!

Right at the beginning, Jesus is telling John to come through the door and then:

At once I was in the Spirit, and there before me was a throne in heaven with someone sitting on it. And the one who sat there had the appearance of jasper and ruby. A rainbow that shone like an emerald encircled the throne.

Revelation 4:2-3

Ok…this is not Jesus they are talking about, I know this because in the very next chapter it says:

 Then I saw a Lamb, looking as if it had been slain, standing at the center of the throne, encircled by the four living creatures and the elders. The Lamb had seven horns and seven eyes, which are the seven spirits[a] of God sent out into all the earth. He went and took the scroll from the right hand of him who sat on the throne.

Revelation 5: 6-7

So right there…. The Lamb is Jesus, and the one who sat on the throne is God the Father…. Isn’t that cool???!!!! God’s appearance is like that of Jasper..a Orangish Red Stone with Dark Brown veins running through it. red-jasper

 

And Ruby…not to be confused with garnet! Ruby has a brighter look with pink highlights…garnet is a darker, deeper red with black or brown lowlights.

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And a Rainbow (all the colors) that shone like an emerald!

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look how vibrant that is! It’s not even cut yet!

It sounds so amazing! I still hold to he looks like us in shape… we are made in his image after all….

After that there is an explanation on the 24 elders, 7 lamp stands, and 4 creatures called Seraphim…pretty cool descriptions of them. My one thought is how do they do it up there in Heaven and not have a headache from all the Glorious singing? Would be so nice to have here, specially with my kids! 🙂

You know…this is just what I have read, how I think it means. But feel free to look it up and give your thoughts on it!!

(i googled jasper,ruby,emerald….these photos belong to whoever…not to be used for anything else)

 

Thanks for Reading!

Frog