Sorry it’s been so long! We have had a harder time finding internet service at the new place. We’ve been settling down and slowly making the place ours.
I have to say that life is pretty darn good right now! It still has it’s hard spots but I’ve been working hard on looking at things the way Jesus does. God gave me this gift and I don’t want to take it for granted anymore.
I’m still learning a lot about myself and working on some of my insecurities. I’m also learning how to set healthy boundaries for my own wellbeing. Which is hard because others see it as I’m just trying to be a jerk and I don’t care about them. So not true! I’m setting these because I love them! I’m also learning that there are some that I have to love from a distance…. I love them but they are too toxic or violent to continue to have them close to me or my family.
I’m learning to let go… I’m not going to hang on super tight to things and relationships anymore.. I’ve realized that I’m looking too hard at relationships for my self worth. So I am looking for a new balance of give and take. I’m not perfect I struggle hard with not feeling wanted and so I don’t try as hard as i should sometimes to be there for others. But I’m working on it.
A verse that is currently working to restore my faith is John 8:36. God sent Jesus to set us free… He sent Him to set ME free!! Recovery has helped me come so far… this verse goes right along with it…. and so for my birthday I did a thing… I got a tattoo! It incorporates my family, recovery, and God’s promise. It’s not done but it’s looking awesome.
The diamonds are for my family… my treasures. The circle is for the craziness of addiction and abuse… it’s broken because I have decided to break it. The open rose for the growth I’ve made and the closed one for the growth to come. The butterfly stand for grace, beauty, and freedom. And of course the verse is in the center. Still have some colors to add but yeah.
I’m still a work in progress and I’m going to mess up but I’m going to work hard anyways.
Thanks for reading!